Bitterness, frustration, anger, fatigue, and even a bit despondent.
I am having a really hard time not blaming my child's sleep problems on our life circumstances.
If only we had a job and our own place, and money so I could have bought books to prepare more fully for having an infant.
But then again, I didn't even think to buy baby sleep books before he was born. So even if we had had money for them, I probably wouldn't have known to buy and read them.
But since I have been reading them, if we had our own place, I wouldn't have to worry about the temperature of the room, whether my mom would hear my baby cry and judge my parenting choices, and maybe consistency wouldn't be such a struggle for me.
If only my baby didn't have reflux and didn't cry so much when he was so little then I wouldn't have developed such "bad habits" regarding his sleep. I can't control that one, but what if?
If only my husband had a job and our lives were more structured, then having a consistent and predictable schedule would be easier.
Are sleep associations really that bad? Is it normal for my baby to be waking up every 2-3 hours at this age?
Sarah still does that sometimes. I think it's just a baby thing.
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