Motherhood!

Being a mother has been nothing short of amazing!

I marvel at the miracle that babies are. I marvel at what our bodies are capable of doing. Women are incredible!

I remember when David and I first decided that it was the right time to start our family. We were so excited at the thought of welcoming a child into our family! Luckily, we did not have to try very hard before we found out that I was pregnant!

Early pregnancy is tough because other than feeling hormonal and generally yucky, not a whole lot is different. The idea of a baby on the way is just that-- an idea. You know it's true and that it will happen eventually, but for a long time, pregnancy is just a concept. Because I had a fairly uneventful pregnancy (thank goodness) I did not feel much different.

One morning early on, I was praying to feel more for my baby-- to feel more love for our baby, rather than just the concept of a baby. I was overcome by excitement. Not my excitement, but our baby's excitement. I knew just how extremely excited our baby was to be joining our family. Suddenly, this tiny little thing growing inside of me became real. One day, I was going to meet this person who came from heaven to be our child. My prayer was answered. How could I not love this little one who is so excited to come to us?

And then I felt the baby kick for the first time. I was driving somewhere, and I felt a distinct tap tap tap just to the right of my belly button. I can't even tell you how cool it is to feel your baby move for the first (and millionth) time! Feeling the baby move was probably one of my most favorite parts of being pregnant. I loved seeing what the baby would react to-- a food I ate, a song I listened to, or David's voice.

Although I had many unmet hopes surrounding Jackson's birth, those things are so tiny in the grand scheme of things. Yes, next time I will do things differently, but I hope that some things stay the same! I hope that my babies are always healthy and adorable just like Jackson. And I hope I recover just as well, or better, than I have with Jackson.

Jackson is a joy to have. He is good at eating and sleeping, and doesn't cry too much. He is very patient, and seems to understand a lot of what we say to him. He has started to look around the room more and is alert and curious! Generally, he is very chill and well-behaved. I don't get much sleep, but it really doesn't bother me too much. It will probably get old at some point, but for now it's okay. And hopefully by the time it does get old, he will be sleeping in longer intervals anyways.

Needless to say...

I LOVE BEING A MOMMY!

David and I are so happy to welcome Jackson to our family. Having him in our life has only made our love for each other even stronger. Our little family brings us so much joy!